Diary

he tryed to hang himself. & says he's gunna do it again.
Because He's Still In Love With Me.

What
The
Fuck.

its been about 4 years since i last saw him.
 ive spoken to him over the ol msn
but nothing major.

Now Because He's "in love with me"
He's Suicidal.
He Knows About Darren.

I Nearly Kissed Lee Today.
Jebus It Was Close.

I Do Flirt OUTRAGEOUSLY with him i know

Im still talkin to him on the ol msnage.
i jus got him to promise he wont do it .

jesus im good.
(or he never wanted to do it in the frist place)

Gtg Pills Are Kickin In Will Update Soooooooooooooon)

Love

Rory x

The Joys Of Teenagerdom =(

I'm Currently Listening To An Ex Who Says He Was Crushed When I Ended It. Oops

I Have Two Science Exams Tomorrow
Joys.

My Family Are So Stressing Me Out Today. Gar My Damned Mother =( 

Admittedly It Is Darren's Best Mates Birthday Today Which I'm Going To His Party On Saturday

Excited But Akward

Loverage

Rora
x

First Time I've seen Darren Since He Got back At School Today.
He played games on his phone at lunch. the only time i really get to see him cauz he's in the year above me.
The Lovebite is practically gone & his mother still won't let me see him.

James knocked for me today. i kissed him a while back before i went out with Greg (the popular guy) & he's still (in love with me) we got so close to kissing again but we didnt cauz of Darren.

I Dunno if I wanted o kiss him or what or if I'm just feeling a bit neglected by Darren. I know Im taking his whole mum thing out on him but I'm pissed off as you can expect.

Reasons I Can't Tell Him

Rory x

I Was In Town With My Dear Friend Matilda. She Confided In Me Although She Is In A Long Term Relationship That She Fancies This Other Guy & That Her Bf (Who I Considered One Of The Nicest Guys I Ever Met) Pressures Her Into Things She Doesn't Want To Do. Tbh I Was Completely Shocked. But It Did Prove Something To Me, That Every Single Guy In The Universe Has His Dark Side And That Guys Truely Do Treat Relationships As Scorecards, I Thought That Was Something Old People Put In Books To Scare You Out Of Sexual Encounters But Its True =O. Do All guys Think This Way? In My Current Relationship I Hadn't Done Anything With A Boy Until I Met Darren, Three Weeks After We Started Seeing Each Other I'd Done Everything. That Makes Me Sound Like Such A Slut But I Thought It Was A Good Idea At The Time. I Do Really Like Him but I'm Not Sure If It's Love. How Are You Spoze To Tell Anyway? There's No HandBooks, Fuck They'd Be Fantastic.

My Dearest Bf Is Away At His Dads This Weekend, So I Have A Free Reign. I Think I Am Meeting One Incredabily Hot Bisexual Tomorrow Arvie, Well Spoze To Be We Kinda Arranged It Quickly So We Gotta Work Out The Details But I Have No Credit & My Dear Mother Is Refusing To Get Me Any =(. Shes Being All Shitty Atm Cauz Of Her Counselling. I Hate Counsellers They're Bollocks ( No Offence Intended ) All It Seems To Do Is Upset People More.
I Hated It When I Was In It. It's Bollocks I Did'nt Feel Any Different I Didn't Work Through Any Issues, No Great Realisation , What Was I Spoze To Gain From Listening To Some Fat Cow In Really Bad Clothes Asking Me Why I Was Upset? I Am Upset Because I'm Wasting My Time Here!

On A Bit Of A Rant Today Because I Wanna Dye My Hair Again, Deep Brown With Purple Bits (Espech As We Have School Photos On Friday) & My Friend Amy, Has Dyed Her Hair Purple, I Did It First In Yr 6 Before I'd Even Met Her But Apaz Its Her Colour Is It Bollocks!!! Fuck Her I'll Do It If I Want! And She's Telling Everyone That I Said Yes When I Was Asked Out By My Bisexual Friend, I Didn't Because Of Darren. I Was Tempted But I Didn't. Which Is Surprising Bcauz I'm Not The Most Faithful Of People My Will Power Is Becoming Totally Immense Now. I Turned Down A Cigarette The Other Day Which I Wouldn't Normally Do. I Gave Smoking Ages Ago But I Usually Take a Drag When I Get Offered. But Darren Would Probably Have Murdered Me.

Loverage Til Next Time
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